May 2016. A frosty cold day. Head phones in, audiobook on. As I continued to put one foot in front of the other on my walk through the woods, I had some uncomfortable thoughts…
“I’m not where I want to be!”
“why am I not there?”
“Am I doing the right things?”
The thought Tsunami hit me hard and all of a sudden I felt the wave come crashing down, a finely concocted whisk of panic, uncertainty, and frustration all mixed into one. I know longer felt like the 6ft man i am, I was suddenly whisked back to being a scared little boy again.
As my subconscious thoughts continued to float to the surface…. I spiralled further, losing even more perspective, I played the victim card, blaming circumstances, bad luck – it’s a funny thing the mind when you let it wander!
It felt as though this went on for hrs, although in reality it was probably a minute (or two) before I managed to gain control of my consciousness like a captain controls his ship.
Your mind is powerful and left to it’s own devices will project: worries, fears, anticipation – to name but a few! If you let your mind wander for too long it can leave you in a kerfuffle (is that even a word?).
When I regained control of my emotions I realised that I’d completely lost all sense of how far I’d come. 5 years ago i’d have been hungover, ordering dominoes pizza (nothing wrong with this by the way – but when your doing it 5x per week you got a serious problem! lol). My mindset back then was negative (and I didn’t even realise it), my environment and peer group was largely toxic, I had 0 drive to do anything.
5 years later…
I’m in my own home, with a beautiful partner, thriving business, awesome family/friends and i’ve developed positively in so many ways. I’m a man who can stand on my own two feet, who’s constantly trying to be the best version of himself. I may not be where I want to be but i’ve come on leaps and bounds and my life is richer.
Ironically and as fate would have it, the audiobook (The Warren Buffett Way) that was on in the background (amongst my emotional rainstorm!) talked about ‘patience’ which subsequently lead to the inspiration for this blog.
Patience is absolutely critical…
Patience – “The capacity to accept or tolerate delay, problems, or suffering without becoming annoyed or anxious”
“Rome want built in a day” and all that Jazz! It’s true, you have to be willing to ride the wave, and endure the storm. You’ll face challenging circumstances, people will let you down, you’ll be knocked for 6 at times, Mr Prostration and Mrs Self Doubt will appear, you’ll want to throw in the towel and give up when the going gets tough.
Don’t. Be patient, keep chipping away, know what you want and take small baby steps each and every day. Whether that’s making a plan, reading a book, listening to a podcast or audiobook, making an enquiry, meditating – it doesn’t matter. Just take action. Do it.
After a morning of reflection I not only feel better but I also have a blog out of it! thanks to my internal emotional outburst! It’s funny when you flip a situation on it’s head.
Change in perspective. Back on the journey. Lets do this.
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